I'm just going to write this for myself more to remember the feeling than the poor choice i'm sure i will make I can never leave,I always stay. I am afraid he will fall without me to catch him like I always do but now I feel him pulling me down with him.At first i was strong enough for the both of us but now not so much. He has taken all my reserves and I am left with only myself. the choice is simple...do i save him? or do I choose me? Will god forgive me if I leave? Will his family? will the children? would they rather see me fall instead or atleast in spite of? Please someone help me make a choice. The choice is too hard. If,when I leave I will have to turn my back on him,it is the only way. i could not watch him hurt. I could not watch him fall. i know I would strech my arms out to catch him even if it meant losing my balance. Does he know ever time I die alittle? When people look at me I wonder can they see death? Do they feel the a cold space? If people actually took time to see they would notice there are walking dead everywhere and if they could see us they would not run in fear but bow their heads in pity...
